I have lots to say...and in some ways, I don't want to say it...because i can't help but feel for the people that won't like what they hear.
Well, the thing is that I have a weak side. I didn't want to admit to myself that I had one because that would be wrong. Alex just kept telling me something was wrong with me, that jerk...and now i realize the problem. It can only be described in one phrase, "Whatever Lola wants, Lola gets..."
So Ross' sister and friend, Blake, come to visit for a day or two. And hey, Blake is kind of attractive...
In the words i speak of when i speak of Johnny Garrison: "things happen."
Things happen under trees in the middle of a field in the middle of a thunderstorm with lightning and thunder and a blood red moon. Things happens...
Did it mean anything? Well, nothing really happened that was life altering...but once again, i feel like that stupid skinny chick from the Real World...Goddammit i hate her so much! And so now I feel bad about everything...about Jeff, God bless his heart...I almost felt like I was cheating on him...And yes, I will never see him again...though he says otherwise...that's what Johnny Garrison told me...
Men: Can you believe them when they say you're beautiful and incredible? No, of course not...and if you do...they step all over you. And if you don't believe them...they feel like you don't care about what they're saying. It's all a vicious cycle...and it's all because of individual inhibitions and flaws. Am I beautiful? No, of course not...and how can some junior in high school who ive known for less than six hours think I am when I've known myself my whole life and know that, in fact...I am not beautiful? Am i going to stop believing myself and believe someone i hardly know other than the fact that he woke up in my bed this morning...wearing the coolest boxers I have ever seen...
Oh Emily, your situations make Trefor laugh...laugh at my infallible ignorance...and yeah, like Trefor is some sort of god! Ha! That's almost enough to make me start laughing as well.
And my philosophy still stands because it is true: "Something Extraordinary is about to happen"