So i got a letter from Pete today...and it's the most depressing and beautiful thing i have ever read...
It's so sad...I dont know what to say or anything...I want to write about him because he truly is a wonderful person but...i can't.
I'm inhibited by these strange feelings of emptiness...I can tell that he's in a lot of pain when he was writing this...and it puts this severe emotional strain on me too. God, what do I do now? I'm in this relationship where I'm trapped and in love at the same time?
"He's safe" yes...blah blah blah that's what they tell me. But that's bullshit...you should feel the way you want...
The letter also feels depressed because...he seems mad that he doesn't have the energy for a relationship like I do. What am I to do now? Be sexually inactive while my junior in high school boyfriend, when he feels like it...writes me occasionally?
Oh Sauter, you're between a rock and hard place now....

"I feel like i left part of me at camp or with you, and you're filling that hole...Strange, I guess it means 'I love you'"

God this stupid Eminem song is so addicting...i cant stop listening!

Today I saw my Big Fat Greek Wedding and it was good...just what i needed.
I need to be creative because I'm not being creative...I just have all this leftover hostility from nothing.
Today was my last day of a whole day of freedom before spending all my days at the pharmacy making loads of cashola! 300 bucks will soon be mine soon!

Enough of writing...I'm moody!

Today was "family wash cars" day at the sauter house...the sauter women washed their cars...