I have the sudden urge for power...
I have the idea that when i grow up (assuming if i ever grow up) I want some part of the world to see me as a higher figure. I found in my journal an entry dated from late november of last year. And in this journal entry it says, "Alex, if he says what he says he is...could be a major world power someday...and I could use that to my advantage...ride the coattails to power..." Then i mention how crooked that is, using someone for their power. I always pictured myself a silent voice behind a political machine...and aristocracy...something worth my while...
Maybe this is the Napoleon in me speaking...or just the voice of common sense