Today over lunch Jesse told me Operation: Effort was stupid. But didn't I say yesterday that it was? They are "operations" and yes, that has military connotations but aren't I doing what every military has been doing for centuries?
I have a plan...strategic posts, I am the general...
I am going into somewhat hostile territory...where there could be emotional casulties and fatigue
And finally, I must take over this "new land" for my own...thus winning the war

I don't claim to have a military mind and nor would I ever want one...but this just seems to make sense for me and I have proof it works...
And one day, Like Napoleon (though I'm not taking all of Europe, just a small country)...I will be exiled by the nation that I so loved and that's the way life is. But if this were really war...

I wouldn't get to do it again and again until I die

Operation: Effort

It's been a few days since Operation: Effort started...and it's been doing pretty well.
Last night we watched the Ice Storm...
Tonight was kind of a loss but...
Tomorrow is Clerks Animated.

Can I ask you something? You all know it's been a year for me...for having a boyfriend (if you can call whatever I dated a boyfriend) and maybe one day something will happen and everything will be wine and roses...but is this pathetic? I mean, Operation: Effort...is it worth it?
I remember my other Operations...
The 5th Victim: It only took me 24 hours to make Brian Abend mine at summer camp in 2000...he was my "5th Victim" in my entire life to take interest in me.
Peter didn't have an operation name...
Alex probably did...but I don't really remember that relationship much now. Repressing it deep inside me is great.
But now Operation: Effort...
"this could be the beginning of a beautiful friendship"