I apologize for the way I acted in my last blog. It was innapropriate...and I am truly sorry.

I saw my therapist for the first time...Dr. Crane...I thought that was great. I told her about Johnny Garrison...and what happened in Indiana...and then, she did it. She used the "R" word.
Now, I think from my recollection, I dont think i was...you know, the R word. I hate using the word because I wasn't...Maybe it's denial but I hate that word so much. But it scared me that people actually thought I was, by an asshole like Johnny Garrison! But it wasn't the r word...I can tell you that much, I wasn't. but other than that she's nice, I can tell right now she really hates Alex, and by looking at me...I know she feels bad for me for some unknown reason, like I've been through so much in such a short time...Poor Emily, look at her...blah blah blah, Indiana, Johnny Garrison, her Dad isn't alive, boo hoo....I just think its been a life experience....isn't everyone's life like this????

Today Porter and I went to the photo shop in Kingston and I got cards and new fuzzy slippers and magically cool new shoes for 20 bucks. Cheap shoes, where have you been all my life! Then we went to friendlys. It made me feel good to spend some time with her, she's awesome. Hopefully my therapy sessions won't be so taxing this Friday.

Trefor has informed me the West Point cadets are comin to Bard from 3-5...I dont even want to see them. The military of America is nothing but a hurtful, dangerous environment.

But I will tell you this, Hurley, NY...there's the "Only corn maze that salutes the heroes of 9/11" I'm going this Friday...who's in???