If you only knew the feelings that are pulsating through my brain...

I fucking hate the world right now...for being so low, dirty, and perverse...Tonight Alex sent me pictures of the New Years Eve party...where what really happened that night took place. there's one picture that made me as mad as I am now. There's a picture of Alex...and he's on top of me while i'm piss ass drunk and he's taking advantage of me and someone took a picture of it! HOW FUCKING SICK DO YOU HAVE TO BE TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THAT!
So Alex Raggio...in my rage I say that I will NEVER talk to you again, because you dont deserve it...and I feel that now my revenge on Johnny stems to you too...oh, you can laugh at that...and tell me I'm stupid because I can live in this rose colored world, but Alex, you are the true problem to my existence...I can't stand the way you have threatened me, taken advantage of me...how cruel and low can you be? So, if you ever read this...fuck you, and I hope you live a poor and miserable life in your crappy Indiana world...
You, reader of my journal...cannot know what it's like to be mentally raped...what can i do now but fear life again? Bard sure isn't the safe haven i took it for last year, rather a place where the rage can be heightened into nights of crying myself to sleep. I am not sure why I am telling the world this, but I am telling you all to beware...because I will not take the shit people have been spoon feeding me since i was ten...I am not the pushover that was stepped on in high school...

Emily's mad...