We were under this strange spell that smelt of liquor, sex and violence
Don’t look at me like I’m crazy, because I’m not. I’ve been personally shot by the arrow of no return.

I have realized that I haven't spoken about West Point yet...
But there really isn't anything to say but I was pretty scared to the point of wanting to throw up over McCarthur's statue. But I maintained calm and sat quietly while in the midst of thousands of trained killers. Alex apparently hid in his room while I was there. I thought that was pretty stupid. Why hide from something that doesn't give a shit anymore like me!?
I told Diana and she told me he had "lost something and is acting strange." Then she told me that not talking to him was a stupid thing but everyone was acting stupid...she was so mad she just told me she couldn't deal with it anymore and signed off. I respect Diana so very much...I hate to see her mad at me, but I can't talk to Alex. How can I talk to someone who makes me feel like shit all the time!
I'm watching the Ice Storm tonight with Jesse because I finished my paper faster than expected and got most of my work done from the week. Hopefully, I give it a month, I will be eating with Porter at Le Cunard and being happy.
because making an effot is important in society