Emotionally I want to beat myself...maybe it's because i have PMS...but something is about to explode.
I am sexually charged, emotionally unstable, I am mad...I am sad...I am overflowing with psychological choas! I sound like a fucking poem, so...there's something wrong.
From sexual experimentation to Alex's hypotheticals...what the hell am I supposed to do now!
sidenote- I love our dorm setting...i hear the phone ringing from Oberholzer (that's pretty damn far from my windows)
Brahms Cello Sonata to school being almost over. Everynight going to bed dreaming of places that don't exist...happy places filled with Johns: perticually the O'Leary and Garrison kind. "I long to see you..." That's what John O'Leary says to me. And the thing about John is that he writes back...he understands and loves me...I count him as one of my greatest assets.
Look at me, so weepy and unhappy! This is not the way life should be.
I'm going to cheer up Nathalie...with the monorail episode of the simpsons...
"hehehehe...mule"

Pimp Daddy Rags: well, hypothetically, under what circumstances would you get back with me?

Good morning Emily!

Alex has just IMed me...
For some reason, I have lost my appetite...especially because we're talking about sex...
Hey, like old times!

hmmm...I'm hungry and no one is really around...damn!
Do i dare venture out on Bard alone???? Maybe i should...independence never really hurt anyone and I am very hungry.
I think a bowl of something here in this room should suffice...
how pathetic...

So I just watched Star Wars: Episode dos...from the comfort of my dormroom...all warm with slippers on, looking like crap...the joys of bootleg copies! If anyone wants it, just tell me...I have it on my computer.
The reviews have been a little scathing and i do agree on somethings (Hayden Christensen talks in these horrible flowery cliches blah blah I've longed for you in my dreams, blah blah blah...but I dont know anyone in real life who actually talks that way)
Okay, I'll admit it...I really liked it. I was picking up all these references to the other Star Wars...making fun of Jar Jar (he's not in it as much, YAY) and yes, I did watch it by myself but I wanted to see it so badly, I degraded myself to watching it alone. Oh well...I have seen it, so there!
Now I have what I call as Star Wars Lust! I downloaded the John Williams Main Theme, humming along...acting like a complete loser...but it's what i do best, right?
I should be a Jedi.
Think about it...no, seriously...think about it.
"A long time ago...in a galaxy far, far away..."
Emily Wars! Episode 1: Attack of the West Point Cadets!

Done with registration...now all i need to figure out is if i can survive all those political culture classes!
I just have a small thought...it's kind of a sad the way you make a relationship with a person and then, in an instant, after everything seemed to good...they're gone from your life and you just sit in your room and wonder, "I wonder what happened..."

Ho Hum...

Sometimes I think it would be nice to get a "Beer Pong" education...you know, with the large classes, frat houses, and all that's on my mind is "I can't lose at Beer Pong."
Today Finkel told me that my writing was excellent...and that was after the class destroyed my "Vignette from Muncie, Indiana" story. It hurt yes, because the story was painful, but too soon...wait five years until you've got it from an objective angle. Who knows, maybe one day my novel Irrational Hypothesis, will be winning me a Pulitzer. Wouldn't that be silly, me with a Pulitzer!
I just cleaned my room...My side and Nath's side are like day and night...My side looks almost clean and her side looks like a toxic waste site. It probably is.
I'll be home in nine days and Mom's takin me to the Olive Garden. Thank the Lord I'm goin home! I love Bard but it'll be so nice to get out of here and live in the homelife for three weeks and then, OFF TO NEMC! HOORAH!
Well, I don't really have much to say except my first year seminar paper is done, almost...just have to tweek...all that's left is the 5-7 page Philosophy paper and two 3-4 page papers due thrusday...or wednesday, I don't really remember. =)
My orchestra concert is tonight...blah...oh well...My mom is going to be here in an hour!
All right..time to practice my cello...farewell fools!